By Margaret O. in the book: "Multiple Personality From The Inside Out" edited by Barry M. Cohen, Esther Giller and Lynn W.
"The more 'sane' I get, the crazier I feel.
Because I feel!
The walls I had built before kept the crush
of reality away.
Now it closes in and closes in.
and closes in.
Ripping, tearing, soiling...and cleansing?
I watch it get closer
I know I am vulnerable.
I do not feel panic.
It seems so inevitable
So I stand stripped
to the elements of life.
There is no rapture.
There is no bitterness.
No great expectations.
No seething fury.
Just me...standing before fate.
But always with a choice
I do no wish to commit death
But, oh how I hard it is to commit life!
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