Living With DID/MPD
By Sue
I have been living with MPD/DID since I was seven.
I just got a diagnosis (I pretty much had to tell
the doctors what I have) about three or four years
ago. It has been very difficult throughout my life,
for me and the people I am close to. In the last
year, I have become co-conscious with all but two
of my 21 alters.
Those two (were three, one integrated) are shadow
people. Most people don't know that I have a problem,
let alone one that would make most people afraid.
I have two beautiful little boys. My oldest son has
been made aware of my condition and has also been
given certain boundaries to prevent problems for our
family. It is difficult to explain these things to
a nine year old, let alone his six year old brother
who has difficulty understanding why mommy acts funny.
I have recently discovered that I no longer have a
"disorder"...what I mean to say is that the "disorder"
is more like a gift than anything. I would not be here
without my GIFT. !
I am alive and living a productive life because my mind
created the defense system that has kept me SANE. Some
of the people that I unfortunately told, don't believe
that I am sane. Some say that I am lying about my
"gift" or about the abuse that caused it and won't
associate with me any longer. I feel that it is there
loss not mine.
